today i cried

and found comfort.
i’m still crying.
if you know my oldest son and you know my heart, then you know my pain and comfort in this post. there are others.
go here: Notes From The Trenches – the things we don’t write about

sleep

it’s a wonderful thing!
speaking of blessings, two nights in a row i have gotten 6 hours of uninterrupted sleep! that hasn’t happened in well over a year. aaahh. rest. how wonderful. now, if i can just get my children as exhausted as this everyday of the year!

rumors of a party

the grand bash has been hinted about in many places, but not openly addressed. why yes, i am always up for a good party! are ya kiddin’ me?! however, seeing as how we are leaving this residence on saturday, yes, that is approximately 3 days away, and i have yet to get my new utilities [...]

hmmm…

i just rolled down through my previous posts, checking for new comments, and something hit me. why don’t i learn?
the progression of the posts: grumble. disbelief – how’s this gonna work? grumble. realization. beginning of belief. gratitude. ready to step out. blessings.
wow. every time. and there are always every times. you think i would get [...]

the blessings are beginning to flow…

i have to hurry because my daughter has already been hit in the nose with a light saber while i’ve been sitting here.
WE HAVE KEYS TO A DUPLEX IN OUR POSSESSION!!! we move this weekend. it’s not the hood. they have hourly police patrols. it’s not too far from our oldest’s school and not far [...]

thank you

this is in gratitude to the amazing comments on the last wednesday update post.
-lou-
are you kidding me? you, of all people, would breeze through this like it’s nothin’, girl, you’ve taught me already to go with the flow.
-k.t.-
the words are sweet and the action-on-the-ready is even better. thank you for being here.
-carolyn-
a real lunch would [...]

“This is for My glory”

last night, as i was driving home at 11p (and drifting in and out of sleep) this song came on the radio. i called pearl, who was right behind me in his car and trying to help me stay awake, and told him to switch his station to mine that, “our song [was] playing.” 3 [...]

wednesday update

no house/apt/home yet. a couple of leads but nothing finalized. we’re not excited about living deep in the hood again with the smell of meth cooking behind us, execution style murders down the road, and drunks refusing to leave your porch. but it’s also hard to pay the $300 more a month that it costs [...]

oh, so that’s it!

i just figured out why phillip hasn’t put a new post up yet!
i skipped over to his site for the 1500th time to see if he had posted and glanced down at the post before last. “rejoicing during trials”. see, it’s all my fault. if i had gotten this lesson at the time he posted [...]

the things they say

often in my house…
(translations included)
~mama, will you wipe me?
~mama, she stinks.
~mama, where’s my purple light saber?
~mama, tan i have 2 teats? (can i have 2 treats?)
~mama, i want peent milt. (i want pink milk)
~i don’t want to eat that! (as whiny as you can imagine.)
~bad mama, bad mama.
~i hate you.
~baahh maaann. (batman. said for every superhero, [...]